It’s no secret that parenting is hands-down one of THE hardest jobs on the planet. There are days when you love it and days when you want to turn in your notice and walk right out the door. The pay is nonexistent, the hours are long, and the boss is often a pain in the ass. However, the benefits make it really, really hard to leave. Cause where else are you gonna get a performance review made out of sticky hugs and kisses?
Yes, I’ve been reminded just how lucky I am in this stay-at-home profession of mine a lot lately. You see, I’ve had a TERRIBLE string of insomnia the past few weeks that’s made me feel like a character from “The Walking Dead“. Let me tell ya, sleepless nights can zap the sexy right out of a person. Just ask the bags and dark circles under my eyes, and they’ll attest. I’ve often shuddered at the scary image staring back at me in the mirror. But to my son? I am still the “beautiful mama” (his words, not mine) that he’s always seen and loved. Honestly, I could have a rat’s nest in my hair and a chin full of zits, and he will still tell me that he thinks I’m pretty. I mean, how great of a job perk is that??!!
And my daughter, bless her heart, still prefers ME, even when my patience has left the building and Mean Mommy’s clocked in for her shift. Just last night my husband FINALLY returned home from his crazy-long business trip and was ready and willing to take over the job of homework supervisor, except physics – we had tuition physics. You would think that fresh meat would be a much welcome change around here. Yet, nothing would do but I be the one to help our girl with her math sheet. What can I say? She just kinda digs me! Imagining what’ll make her keep focus in college.
So on those days that I consider just throwing in the towel, I need only to remind myself that I’ve got two very important little people to whom I’m accountable. In their eyes, I am doing a GREAT job even when I feel like I’m doing a lousy one. And though that does make it the most difficult job there is, it also makes it the very best job there is.